September 2011
1 post
Topic: Dolled up. →
July 2011
1 post
Topic: Horses, little kids, cheese, and feeling... →
October 2010
1 post
Topic: Books I've read and should read.
The BBC believes most people will have read only 6 of the 100 books here. How do your reading habits stack up?
Bold the ones you’ve read! Italicize the ones you’ve partially read!
The List
1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible
7...
September 2010
1 post
Topic: At Williams. →
August 2010
4 posts
Topic: Biking, sewing, and whatnot. →
Topic: On the job. →
Topic: Shadows. →
Subject: No. No. NO. NO. NO!
I was supposed to write about my summer adventures. And I was going to…although I haven’t so far.
And now I’m in no mood to do so.
I have finished chemo. surgery. radiation.
And now I don’t know if I’ll have to go through all of it again.
I haven’t mentioned that I’m still not free to go. I was scheduled for a variety of exams this/last week: PET, CT,...
July 2010
1 post
Topic: Summer Nights (part 1). →
June 2010
5 posts
Topic: Beauty. →
I’ve mostly gotten used to how I look - sans hair, eyebrows, and eyelashes. It feels so natural now that sometimes I think that this is the way it’s always been. Lately, I’ve caught myself staring into the mirror, trying to picture myself with hair again. It usually doesn’t work…I have to look at…
New Blog (coming soon). →
A new blog for a new phase of my life.
Subject: [ ]
I’m not sure what to name this post. I was going to name it something like, “The Beginning,” “A New Horizon,” or “The Ever After.” But they sound trite and and besides, I don’t know what chapter this part of my life is. So, it’s just going to be known as the “bracket” post.
Anyways, the BIG NEWS: I finished chemo. Thank God. And...
Subject: DONE.DONE.DONE.DONE.DONE.
DONE WITH CHEMO TODAY.
Subject: Back.
I was in the hospital for a week for neutropenia. Or in other words, I had no white blood cells. Personally, I don’t think it was serious enough to warrant a week’s stay at the hospital. But then again, I suppose it could be. My body wouldn’t have been able to fight off the simplest infection or fever (much like AIDS), and I could have been in serious trouble if it was a...
May 2010
2 posts
Subject: (Almost) the last one.
Finished 13th round of chemo today. (And this was the last cycle of doxorubicin! THANK GOD.) Only 1 more to go…in 2 weeks. The last one is going to be the worst - 5 days. I know I’ll be able to get through it…but I wonder how I’ll be able to wait patiently through those 5 days.
I can’t believe that I’m almost finished with treatment. Wow. I’ve been...
Subject: Updated.
It’s been almost a month-long hiatus since my last post. I couldn’t think of anything worthwhile to write, and really…there really was nothing substantial to talk about. I’ve already talked about how much I hate chemo, blah blah, and another post would merely be redundant. I suppose it’s a good thing that I had nothing new to write - I didn’t have anything to...
April 2010
5 posts
Subject: An answer would be appreciated.
What should I write about next?
Subject: New attempt.
I just deleted my last post. The one I wrote about an hour ago. I truly don’t know what to write about, which may be a good thing because no news is good news. Except I’d like to write something, because I feel as though I haven’t exercised my intellectual abilities enough. And I’m really scared that all that poison that has been pumped into me has permanently damaged my...
Subject: LOLOL.
I just opened my Williams’ email. And saw an email recruiting me for the CIA. HAHAHAHAHAHA. I am so amused. Maybe it’s like what my aunt said earlier - they’re looking for more Asian American women to join (so that they could go seduce the hell out of those Asian politicians). Just kidding. I’m sure that a bunch of other people have received the same email as I have....
Subject: Macbook Love
I just got a Macbook (well, technically yesterday). And it’s pure LOVE. It’s going to take a while to get used to, since I’ve used PC’s for most of my life, but that’s okay. It’s worth it. Now…I just need to hold up my end of the bargain and design those Powerpoints/website for my uncle.
The Jack Jack List and the Daniels List.
Jack Jack soundtrack:
I’m On a Boat
Just Dance
Tik Tok
Your Love is My Drug
Get Low
Boots and Boys
I Kissed a Girl
My Humps
Boom Boom Pow
Sexy Back
Milkshake
Poker Face
Promiscuous Girl
Candy Shop
Blame It
Yeah!
Down
Don’t Cha
Beep
Single Ladies
I Got It From My Mama
Good Girls Go Bad
Don’t Trust Me
I’m A Flirt
Umbrella
Please Don’t Stop the...
Subject: Things I've learned
Hm, so I remembered Phil’s quote from graduation last year, and it was something about how last summer was the blank page between the chapters of our lives. I wish I remembered the exact quote; I’m not doing it much justice here. Anyways, the reason I’m bringing it up now is because I think last summer was the blank page at the end of the life I’d known for the last 18...
March 2010
12 posts
Subject: Musings.
Yesterday was my last day of radiation. WOOOO!!! Only 6 cycles of chemo left…
I was supposed to go in for chemo on Wednesday, but my platelet count was 5000 below the accepted amount (45,000::50,000). So, it’s delayed till Monday. I’m not all that upset about it, because the delay gave me a chance to visit Aunt Scarlett and Gary at the SF international terminal yesterday while...
Subject: viola, viola, viola.
I feel like it’s time for me to work on something new now that I’ve recovered from the surgery. I still haven’t mastered Bruch’s Romanze to my satisfaction, but I really want to work on something new and difficult so that it’ll motivate me to improve. I need to work on speed (*sigh* Schradieck No.1), vibrato (1st and 4th finger), not locking my wrist when bowing, the...
Untitled
Some people just make me so angry. But the scary thing is that I usually never let these people know. I just keep them in my memory…and bide my time.
Usually, after a while of getting to know a person, I know exactly what makes him tick. What his ambitions are. It’s not hard. After all, most people want the same thing. Each person is just a different variation of the same flavor.
I...
sabby asked: To echo Saraann, I read your piece in the Record and just wanted to let you know that you've got a whole Williams community on your side. I've basically read the entirety of your blog over the past two days (creepy? sorry), and am amazed at both the composure and the brutal honesty you manage to convey in your posts. Keep fightin the good fight... I too will be praying for you.
Subject: In other news...
I’m on a roll today. One post done, and I’m writing another one right now. This one is definitely a lot more light-hearted though - it’s mostly about what’s going on in my life right now.
I finished my op-ed last week, and it got published this week! (http://record.williams.edu/wp/?p=13260) I’ve received some very amazing responses about it from the Williams...
Subject: Things I wish I had known about cancer...
I thought I should write this post before I forget all of about it in the summer. There are a bunch of sites out there about what it’s like to have cancer and blah blah, but I didn’t really find them useful…unless what you’re looking for is scientific data, etc. Some of this stuff is repetitive, since I most likely mentioned it earlier in my posts…but here’s all...
saraann asked: I just read your Record article today...I'll be praying for you through the rest of your chemo!
Subject: UGGGH.
dammit. I still have to get a blood transfusion even though my hemoglobin level is 10.1. UGGGGGHHH.
Subject: Things to do.
8 chemo cycles. 6 more to go. And another 1 1/2 weeks of radiation. Hopefully I’ll finish by the end of May. sigh. It seems so close, and yet so far.
My plans for the summer have become much more concrete though. I won’t be able to travel around the world, but I think I’ll be able to travel domestically. (Hawaii? Back to the East coast? Chicago?) I don’t mind...
“Bahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Good for your sister. She just proved that...”
– Isabelle.
February 2010
3 posts
Subject: Something to think about.
I saw this on my dashboard the other day. And while I would normally just read and move on…this time I couldn’t.
“I’m the girl who prefers one rose instead of a dozen. I’m the girl who would rather stay in on a Friday night than go to a wild party with random strangers. I’m the girl who wouldn’t make you wait on her hand and foot, but would do anything to make you...
Subject: Brainchild.
Seventh chemo done. 7 fucking more torture sessions to go. Woot! I mostly feel dizzy, but that’s okay. I’ve got something to distract me - a fro-yo/bubble tea shop! No, I’m not eating fro-yo or drinking bubble tea 24/7. I’m actually planning to open my own fro-yo/bubble tea shop in Williamstown. Well, I’ll technically be a “partner;” I’m trying to...
Subject: No news is good news...
Because I’m been effectively nagged and hounded by my mother for the last 2 days about writing a post…here it is.
So what’s new? Umm…I’m missing parts of my 2nd and 3rd ribs. I had 3 chest tubes stuck inside me. Oh, and I have a 6 inch scar on my left side. And I had a second surgery to remove the softball-sized hematoma (blood clot) that formed in the cavity where...
January 2010
3 posts
Subject: Rhio O'Connor Memorial Scholarship Essay...
It’s funny. Back when I had to write all those essays for college apps or for the annual district writing test, I would always wish that I would get a prompt so easy to write about that I wouldn’t even need to think about writing an outline or a rough draft - my pen would automatically spit out words.
Ironically enough, I’ve finally gotten the “easy” prompt that...
Subject: Procrastinating.
Still procrastinating on that essay (the lovely one about how you would react to cancer - although in my case, it’s how I’m reacting to it). I just have to finish it in between now and the 15th, and publish it onto this blog. I’ve got maybe…500 words, with a 1500 limit. It mostly feels like writing another college app - it’s personal, you know what to say, and...
December 2009
3 posts
Subject: Xmas and Reflections
So I didn’t have the best Christmas, as I spent it in the hospital instead…BUT other incidents have made up for the lack of holiday cheer this year. Did I ever mention just how much I love Williams, especially Willy F? I still can’t get over the fact that they sent me 1000 cranes - it is absolutely amazing, gorgeous, stunning, and touching. All 1000 cranes are currently hanging...
A Pretty Shawl, a Pretty Dress
thebluemoon:
yay! So proud of my little sis.
(this is more from personal experience and motto)
My sister, my role model, always dressed up for basically…everything. She was always there, a very outgoing person. Whatever she did, she always had her head held high, never caring, never minding what others thought of her, but instead of her own opinions. Maybe that is why, so many respected her...
Subject: Oh yeah?
So, I’m writing an essay for a scholarship essay contest, mostly because I thought the prompt was funny (and sadly ironic/relevant): What steps would you take if you were given a dire cancer prognosis? HAH. I can answer that from experience.
After writing a bit, I gave an excerpt to a close friend of mine to read. And to only be told that it was too bitter. WHAT?! I merely talked about how...
November 2009
10 posts
“HAPPPPPY KILL THE TURKEY DAY!!! (sometimes i wonder why...”
– Laurel (my younger sister)
Subject: Romanze.
Romanze, not romance - it’s the title of a song. It’s not a well known song. It would be classified as a “classical” song, although it was really written/composed in the 20th century by Max Bruch. Originally named Romanze for Viola and Orchestra in F Major, Op. 85…but seeing as I can’t house 90+ orchestra members in this San Ramon house…it’s a...
Subject: Food + chemo. There's something wrong...
Third chemo done. Thank goodness. Only 1 1/2 days…but it still wasn’t short enough for me. I thought this time I would recover much sooner, but it appears that I thought much too optimistically (and perhaps I spoke too soon about how well I was doing).
I have been neglecting emails, letters…I should write those soon. But the last 3 days have been misery again. Granted,...