A Pretty Shawl, a Pretty Dress
(this is more from personal experience and motto)
My sister, my role model, always dressed up for basically…everything. She was always there, a very outgoing person. Whatever she did, she always had her head held high, never caring, never minding what others thought of her, but instead of her own opinions. Maybe that is why, so many respected her or feared her, one way or the other, she gained respect from everyone. Well, I always remembered, when she was in high school, she would dress prettier than usual on test/final days. She usually wore a dress, and maybe sometimes curled her hair when she was supposed to study even more in the early morning. Sometimes I thought she was crazy…I mean, come on, if you have extra time to study (which is basically the most important thing to everyone in my school), you would. Other times, I would be like, ‘Oh! She looks prettier than normal today!”…and then the rest of the time, I wouldn’t really pay attention because I was too busy catching up on my sleep, by sleeping on the way to school. I never really thought about it, as something important.
Only recently, have I started to actually ‘dress’ myself in a fashionable way. Long story short. Before, I would probably throw on a t-shirt, jeans, and a jacket…very simple. Earlier on, I had my mom buy my clothes while I had not fashion sense at all, so I basically wore ANYTHING I wanted…and a little later, I had to wear uniforms, so I didn’t have to worry. Last year, hardly anyone saw me in a dress, because I always thought that dresses…were… ‘weird’. When you wear a dress, being a girl, you have to accessorize. You HAD to match the dress with a cute jacket, and with the perfect shoes…maybe sometimes a small/big handbag depending on what you’re wearing. Sometimes, add in a bracelet or earrings, or that cute simple necklace you have been dying to wear. Knowing from girls, you can never ever ever ever just put on a dress and walk out the door. Even now, I hardly wear any dresses…but I do occasionally, and that is how the whole story ties in.
You see, I never really understood my sister’s wisdom. Now, I realize everything… The statement that my sister used when she would dress up on special days, was because even if she didn’t know everything to she needed to know on the subject, at least she could walk into class VERY confident, and KNOWING that she would ace the test no matter what. The mood change was contributed to the fact that she wore much prettier clothing than normal, and her hair curls (she’s crazy over curly hair). Most of the time, the boost in confidence did have a positive outlook. Knowing that she would do well, she actually did well!
Not knowing this wise, awesome trick (like I said before), I didn’t care. I’ll just think my sis was just being her (crazy) self…Until recently, have I paid attention to this ‘trick’ of hers. The background story is that now, I’m not doing as well as I would like to in my studies. And then, on test and quiz days, I would seriously freak out and forget everything that I learned. I had NO confidence in myself. However, one day (being the slow me) I decided to copy my sister and wear one of my favorite dress (green and white) to school that day…with heels (not tall at all in girl standards, but enormous in my world). Though my grade may or may not have been higher, after that, I started dressing up for all (or my more important subject’s) classes when we would have tests. After that (for a while or even maybe now) I’ve been known to wear a dress every time I had a quiz/test. Sometimes it helped; sometimes it didn’t help my grade at all. However, bottom line was, was that it totally changed my confidence level. I would probably ‘strut’ to class, knowing and feeling pretty. And sometimes, that is just all the feeling you need to get past a tough day at school.
So maybe why I’m even writing this at all…is well, I love ya sis. About everything you did, I’m copying and now I can see why so many people loved (and still love) you. I miss you tons, and maybe dressing up just reminded me so much of you. Thanks for the trick. (And to the other readers who I do not know are reading this…try it, if you’re still a student…it really helps. And sometimes, gives you more attention in the positive way!) I can’t wait to see you again. <3
